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Foundations: Altars- My Breaking Rock

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It just looks like a rock in the woods, but...
Last Spring, I participated in a spell concerning two major Texas Supreme Court decisions. The group of us who participated made honey pots well before the decisions came down. As the spell came to a close and the two decisions came down, I realized that it was time for me to end my spell and release the energy to the Universe. 

I'm big on not just ending spells, but actually releasing their energy, unless the need for a specific energy manifestation is ongoing.  I feel this way, because I believe that if the energy is not released, an issue may continue and never be resolved.  Sometimes, it's necessary to do additional spell work around an issue, but I feel that a new spell should be done each time if this is not known initially.  Keeping something going keeps us tied to it. Sometimes, this is a correct state.  Other times, it is not.  In the case of these  court decisions, I felt that once the decisions came down (both of them,) I…

Practice and Chronic Illness

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I have a chronic illness.  The Gods know, I am not the first, nor will I be the last, Witch to have to deal with an illness.  That said, we all have different practices, and we all navigate practice and chronic illness differently.

This illness (in my case, it's recently-diagnosed fibromyalgia) has been a huge source of frustration for me. It (obviously) affects all aspects of my life, but it makes my spiritual life especially challenging.  Just yesterday, I was working on stillness practice, and I could not become still, because I could not stay in one position for too long, due to the pain.  That was dismaying; after all, if I can't even be still, how can I possibly ever be effective at conducting ritual or spell work?  Sometimes, I don't set foot in my Temple for weeks--not because I've given up, but because I have to pull back and save my energy for other things, like basic functioning.

Tomorrow night, I'm planning on doing something specific.  It will absolut…

How I Am Dealing with the Problem

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I was very inspired by the spirit of the spell cast by many Witches back in February, but for reasons I covered in that post, I opted out. I did a lot of thinking, and this month, I carried out my own.  The problem we are facing here in the U.S. is simply too big to let go.  We are in a lot of trouble, and the consequences of the actions that are being taken by these people will be far reaching and will set our nation back decades, not to mention the terrible, terrible damage that these actions will do to our beloved Planet.

After some time and much thought, I formulated a spell that both satisfied my need to do something about it and fit comfortably within my personal ethical framework. The spell was begun at the last New Moon (March) and was ended at the Full Moon on April 11. I left the Circle cast the whole time, though all action took place on those two nights.  In between, I simply reinforced the spell with a quick prayer and some specific movement.  The movement was meant to m…

Nature Teachings: Ant

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OK, so this is a carpenter ant, but you get my point.
Many years ago, I participated in a guided meditation, during which we were meant to meet some of our animal guides.  I learned that day that I have at least one Insect Guide:  the ant.  I met Ant in one of its underground tunnels.  In the vision, I was very small--smaller than the ant--but I was not afraid, and the ant was not vicious. We simply had a conversation.  That day, I did not walk away with a clear understanding of what Ant wanted from me or what its purpose is in my life.

A couple of weeks ago, as I was struggling with current events, I looked up at one point during my meditation, and I saw one, lone ant crawling up the wall from behind my Altar.  My Temple is not on the ground floor, and the windows weren't open that day, so it seemed very random.  I just sat and watched the ant, and as I did so, the guided meditation I mentioned came back to my awareness. Finally, it occurred to me what Ant wants from me. Ant is n…

Why I Will Not Help Witches Bind the President

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Starting tonight, many will be participating in a spell to bind donald j. trump . While I support my Brother and Sister Witches of all paths wholeheartedly, I will not be participating.  I have a few reasons for this. My purpose in writing this post is not to try and tell anyone they are wrong or are violating some "Karmic Law" or another.  That is not my place.  I'm sharing my reasoning, so that others who may be on the fence or who may be facing pushback because they don't want to participate can see a different perspective on the matter or can feel that they are not alone in having reservations.


I do not know where this document originated.  I do not know the individual(s) who created the spell, nor do I know their intent.  The intent is laid out in the spell itself, true, but I still don't know what the person's true intent is, what is in their heart.  For me, personally, this is an issue.There are too many unknowns around the execution of the spell. Yes,…

These are Trying Times

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My better nature is being tested greatly.
This election was very hard on me.  It was hard on many people.  And things are getting even worse, now that 45 is in office and "doing his job."  As a Wiccan, I've been struggling very, very hard.  I've been feeling very angry and very betrayed by my country on a daily basis. It is true that, as a white woman, I have privilege (something I'm not proud of, nor did I ask for, but I have, nonetheless;) however, that does not mean I feel nothing for those who are different from me.  In fact, I would have to say that I feel way too much, sometimes.  I am an empath, and more importantly, I like to believe that I am a decent human being.  All I know for sure is that what is happening right now in the U.S. is really not ok. 

Like other Witches and Pagans, I have been working magic and praying and journaling and working on my own shit daily.  Like other Witches and Pagans, as well, I have been bumping up against my personal ethic…

The Grimoire Project

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The desk was my grandmother's vanity.


In mid-October, I sat down and finally began to compile my Grimoire. For now, it's simply a timeline, with a few notes included with each entry.  I'm just trying to get everything documented in one place, hopefully in order. I was very prolific back in the 90s, so my material is spread across three different volumes, each one used for a different purpose.  So far, I have not included details of any of my rituals, and I have not yet decided whether I will include prayers and chants I have written.  I kind of feel like those are meant for their own volumes.  I may also number my journals and create an index.  One thing at a time, though.

What I'm finding is that this is the one area of my life where I have always felt confident.  I was a shy child, and I'm a shy adult, but as I read back through my journals, I'm realizing I have never doubted myself when it comes to Craft.  Not once.  (That's pretty cool!) This does not mea…